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A short post full of wisdom is better than a post long and full of gray.
And seeing your letters apear on the page instead of constantly trying and seeing nothing form. Frustration.
And looking in to the mirror and seeing that your hair hardly tangled at all durning the night is better than waking up and running your hand through your hair and feeling your hand stop in an instant and a hard pull on your hair.
And clicking the mouse on your computer and having it go right to the website you wanted is better than waiting for what seems like hours for it to go to the site.
And being covered in friends is better than be shuved off in to the sidelines wishing a bus would come and pick you up.
And jumping in to a lake and taking your sweet time to come up is better than dropping and feeling suck to the bottom.

RED

Whats does one do??

What does one do when they feel as though 2 evil walls are caveing in upon them. What does one do when their heart feels its going to gush out in pain. What does one do when tears are running down their face and you can't think clearly, nor see.
Whats does one do when their eyes hurt so much from been burnt with water. What does one do when their face is sticky and stained with tears.

There is no real answer to this, except; Believe.

take a deep breath

There is always someone there for us. Even if they are gone. And you can't see them. There is always someone there for us. Always. God may be in heaven, the kingdom above. But he is always there for us. You can't know without trying. You always have someone by your side, even if they're not by your side. Sort of like if you want a thought but then you may not want to want to have that thought. That person that is always by your side is Christ. He is our deep breath. When we breath in a deep breath we should be breathing knowledge and relaxation, calmness and beauty. Grace will always be with us, by our side.
When we breath we breath in bits of him. He is inside us. Healing and forgiving us. He is the one who makes the sun pour in to your room. And the one who makes the heavenly rain fall.
The one who is always there for us, even if you can't see it.
Take a breath right now and try.









He is.

a bubble

Gum:
Pink, round, cute, puffed. Floating in it own pretty way till it deflates.

B Bath:

Shinny, has its own glass of color. Everyone of those shimmys has its own shin and shim.


Balloon:

Jumpy. Very strong. Has a bold color and seems to stretch as far as life can take it.


sauce when is boils:

Glumpy, mashy, steaming. A bubble of taste. floats around ready to be consumed


chocolate:

hmm hmm! Yummyness before your eyes! glosty smashing popping right there. Makes you feel eager.

timers

Sometimes, sometimes things just happen slowly. And sometimes things happen fast as the beat of my heart thumps in your ear. As you pound hard on the ground with your feet as you run in a race time passes. If you are walking home and then you decide to go another way your life changed just then; if you went another way you could have had a whole different experience. Your life could have been different in that time. Yes, time is a awkward thing, we know that its movin and groovin and we can't keep up with it. It's too good a dancer to compete with. The air rings above us as time flys...

pure

As it glugs...

As the sun dropped down on Madi and I as we walked outside. During our break for lunch. Outside. Madi and I. Sun glugging down. Mooing upon us. I looked over at Madi and her face was obviously made of pure gold drops. The wind brushed past us cointaining twinkles of shine. The drops of gold on the caked dirt on the ground reminded me of mustard on burnt toast. THe sun glowed on us and kept us warm under its golden and soft blanket.

You can't give up...

You can't give up no matter how hard the world is crushing you between the rocks in the earth. Or how much the devil is knocking you down. Or how many times you want to kill. Or when you have such a dry throat you are suprised you are still alive and then you think God is saving me! God is watching over me. He always shall.. He always will.. He always is..
And you can't take it for granted even when you feel plum delightful and you are sitting by the fire reading the best book ever.
Or if you were in bed and sinking in to your matress and having the good reminder of: I don't have to get up till 3 if I want surounding you. You must keep your head straight and watch what is before you. But we know god it up there too...

Watching

For My Father

4 jobs:

1. A Student Of THe Langley Fine Arts School. Been one since Gr.1.

2. Picking up the dogs poo ;). Not pleasant.

3.Being good to the people I love. Which, pray for me; I am not the best at always.

4.Pretending...

4 movies I could watch over and over...

1. The Lord Of The Rings 1, 2, 3..
2. Charade
3. Napolean Dynimate
4. The Perfect Man

4 places i've lived:

1. Walnut Grove: Town House. Many awful dreams about dying there. Odd.
2. Walnut Grove: House House. Yes, The house house. MAny kids were there. Many. Yet, they just didn't except me.
3. I would have to say No Comment.
!
4. Fort Langley: Gorgeous. As my Dad said; Groovey.



4 albums:

1. Fiest (Sarah Harmer)
2. Sarah Harmer (You were here)
3. The Beatles
4. Nelly Fortardo
+ Many more...


4 fiction writers:

1. Judy Blume (sticks with the soul. All of her books)
2. C.S Lewis (Have to agree with Dad on this one:).)
3. Beverly Clearly (I quite enjoyed some of her books)
4. All of the traveling pants books!

4 poets:

I have read lots of poetry. But I can not name any of the poets I have read.

4 Playwriters:

Again Can't recall...


4 non-fiction writers:

Well;

The National Geographic Magazines. Maybe not a writer, yet there are many great stories in those that are non-fiction... Right?

Diary Of Ann Frank

The Dictionary

The Bible


4 heroes:

1. Jesus Christ
2. A Friend
3. Thought
4. Frodo and Sam

4 vacations:

1. Disney World 2004.

2.Echo Lake ( Wonder if The Dog was NAmed after it..)

3.Chaunagen LAke.

4. St. Arseny's Summer Camp

4 foods:

1. Meat Loaf

2. Speg ;)

3. Sausages From the Fort Langley Bakery

4. Chinese Food

4 places i'd rather be:

1. In Bed
2. Running
3. Alone
4. hanging out with friends

4 sites:

1. badgerbadgerbadger.com
2. JKrowling.com
3. Blogger.com ;) ;)
4. photobucket.com

4 bloggers to whom i'm passing this burden:

1. Ave
2. Mag
3. Gabe
4. Myn

When you have nothing to do sip peach juice

Wise advice?
I think so. In fact I am sipping peach juice right now. Not much of any information, but I do think it is very powerful; sipping peach juice, hmm. Brings beautiful thoughts :) mmm. I like having a spinning head. When I have nothing to do I like to let my mind spin and spin while I am consuming peach juice. Spinning. I have many thoughts. I think its amazing how everyone in this world has worries and thoughts and loved ones of their own. I like that alot. More than I like peach juice. The fruity colorful flavorful liquid bounces down my throat. Sort of feels like I am throwing myself in to an ocean. Apples are fun too. They are a fun fruit. I have so many reasons why, that I don't have any reasons at all. When I was little and Mom and I would go to chapters I would always like to touch the pink, smooth, heavy books. I still like the idea of them. That reminds me of peachs too. I have always thought of peachs to be spunky and fresh, fluffy at times. Then again they are a graceful fruit; which sounds very odd. A graceful fruit. hmm. Beautiful, spunky... Peaches. Fruit.

don't leave me...

She might leave me. I don't want her to.
It's Avery's birthday today. I am so happy for her. But it makes me sad.
I can't believe it. 13. No. It feels for me the trees are growing and i'm just the pond staying there. bubbling away.
Shr's growing up. I'm not. It feels so much like that some times. And it makes me cry. I feel awful when I do. Cause its so happy that she is growing up. I'd miss her by my side if she took off so far. It went from this:

4-6: We were always together. We would stay up till 2 when we were at each others house's. The New Years party that year we had a contest; whoever statyed up the latest won. We would keep ourselfs awake till talking about barbies *grin*. Ave won. =D

7-9= She would always have funny stories to tell. She would always keep me laughing and still does. She was almost perfect. No one is perfect. But it seemed like it. She is beautiful, Smart, Funny.


10-12= Always was there for me. I knew I could tell her anything. She was huggable and laughable. Still is. We talked and talked. We would goof off. We went through mess ups. And parties. Hard things, sad things, happy things.



I don't want to loose her.

To be a princess

When I was... Well every girl goes through the stage where she wants to be a princess more than anything else. Beautiful, Charming, and the long dresses. I used to always want to wear a dress and fancy shoes. Yep that was me. Not just me every little girl I know goes through that stage. Just like everyone goes through the cootie stage ;). You wanted to dance wear skirts and twirl and swirl. Have long cozy hair. And be a princess. Just be a princess. Twinkley eyed and bouncy personallity she is already her own princess inside she just can't see it. Then you grow a bit older and are not as graceful anymore. You like to wear dresses still but they get in the way with rolling in the mud. So you ditch the gowns and the princess that you were dreaming of and move on to pants, pink sweats and children's yoga pants. Then sweats aren't cool anymore when you hit middle school and you wear jeans and slacks and all the other pants you can think of, (still yoga and sweats do stick to the soul;). Yes it changes and the princess changes. But as soon as you choose your princess she'll always be there for you and look out for you, and accept you in every way.


No matter what you wear.

gym

I love gym.
And I love my big, huge gym class, so many people. Every class at gym we have to start at different bases and then we one of the instructors shouts out a counts down while we prepare are last preparations. And then we shoot out among the gym pounding the floor with our runners and bluring the room with our shorts. Each time we get to our starting point we grab a stick. That stands for a lap around the huge gym. When time is up you count out you sticks and you find out how many laps you ran. Today I did 15 laps. I hope to do more next time, thats not nearly enough for me, I know next time I can do more. I started out with 10 then I moved up to 11 and now I am 15! Yay! I was very proud but some people didn't believe me. But I know I did it.

Black

Why is that color so unlikeable?
I love that color in fact its my favorite color to wear. I'm no goth. But I do like darker colors, only because I hate drawing attention to myself. Black for a fact is a very nice color, there are many nice things that are blacl let me name a few;
The beautiful midnight sky, cozy cotton and wool sweaters, black kittens, black slacks, coffee without cream, dogs wet noses.And much much more! But black can be a scary color too, well, a unlikeable color anyway. But I don't even want to name things that are black unlikeable things cause most of those things are signs for evil. Lots of goths used to go to my school but all of them graduated. Which is odd it was like a whole grade of goths. I can't think of why people would want black lipstick but thats what they want, thats what they do.

9 days

Gosh only 9 more days till Avery Jordan's Birthday. She was born on the 29th of Janurary. I was born on the 29th also but in a different month. I believe Jonah is celebrating his birthday tonight as I type. Avery said she may not be having a party once again since her grades are not quite improved yet. She is disapointed about that, as she had to cancel her party last year. Well I just want to let everyone know, Ave's birthday is coming up.

Just be..

Just be who you think you are and maybe, just maybe, you might be excepted..

Summer

Let the sun beat down on to your mind and refelect a beam of gold on your chest.
Warm rain falls on to your bare arms and legs as you walk up the hill that seemed so heavy in winter. You let yourself fall on to the water as you stand on the dock let your body sink through the air till you soak in to the ocean and feel light and glowy. Sitting on the sand which seems beautifuly white and dull. Let yourself suck in to the sand and melt in to it by the sun. Let drops of sun tip and tap your face as you put on your cap. Feel the summer air woosh past you as you climb out of the pool and feel warm whirls of water as you jump back in, opening your eyes for a dash and see bubbles bubbling around you. open the front door and find the sun greeting yo to another summer day you walk up past the driveway and start with a slow to fast pace and then take off running down your street air running with you through your tee and past you and then another wall of fresh air fallows. Wear sneakers and sandals, and relax on the cloudy days and drink soft drinks. Walk through your block in shorts and feel wind sleep and sneak in to you. Just feel, Summer.








RED

no funky monkey for me:(

Not that I didn't get in I was supposed to try out today.
This morning I hadn't been feeling well, nor the day before today. Well math class came and it got much worse; my head ached and ached. Then my stomach flipped, the teacher excused me from class as I walked down the classroom everything seemed to spin and then everything went weird my friends sounded like elephants and I felt like I was gonna hurl so I walked as fast as I could to the bathroom it came up but I had to gulp it back down. I turned in to the office and asked for the phone I dialed my number as fast as possible feeling desperate, it was busy! I dialed my Mom's cell no answer! I dialed my grandparent's number no answer! I was gonna to die I thought; I'm going to die. Than I relaxed I leaned back on to the couch. I wanted to fall asleep. THan it csmp to me; I'm not going to try out. I can't be in the talent show...

from smart to stupid and stupid to smart

There are many smart things only stupid people would do. Say a stupid person is perchasing somthing at the store, the clerk asks for half of ten bucks please . Stupid person only has a ten dollar bill, stupid person takes out their ten dollar bill and happily rips it in half. Stupid person gives clerk half the ten dollar bill and smiles like they just did the most intellegent thing ever.
Now that person is just plain stupid, yet it was a smart idea. If I am not getting my point straight here is another example:
Stupid person's mother asks them a favor; "SP I want you mow the lawn today. Just half the grass though, I don't want it to be much too different". Stupid person is feeling quite lazy today. And understands his mother completly who would want all of their grass cut off? Stupid person mows the lawn but only half the yard. Just as she asked. stupid person olny mowed half the property. This person is stupid also. Yet not as stupid. He could have miss understood her. Very well, yet who could be so stupid to think somebody would want their lawn to be uneven?

Smart to stupid.

Stupid to smart.

Funky Monkey

The funky Monkey is coming up.

The Funky Monkey is a talent show that is at our school twice a year. I have been trying out since I was in grade 1.
I have always loved the funky monkey just because it gives everyone a chance to really show what they are in to. I was in the Funky Monkey in grade one and I danced to a song from Shrek with a group of friends and in grade 2 when me and the same group of buds tried out we were well awful but we got another chance and we were great! once again we made it in, we danced to soak up the sun by Sharol Crow. It was tons of fun, as the year before we had a theme; surfing. We made surf boards which most of my friends still have them after all these years. And we had jump ropes and sun screen, bathing suits on. Grade three I did not make it in. I forget what i tried to do though. In grade 4 I did not get in, I tried doing a dance routine with a frined and we weren't practiced up enough. Plus they thought the music was to long, or somthing of that sort long time ago and I dont quite remember. I think in grade 3 I tried making a fun dance full of action with a friend named Jada. But we forgot our music and we didn't move around alot.

Well I hope to make it in this year. I'll be sure to let you guys know how it went:D.

RED

rain

I love rain, when its in the summer I love it, warm air and cool rain pouring down your chest.
One of the most amazing experience I have had was to be able to run through the rain. Thats it, just romp and romp through the water that slides through the air and on to you. I want to dance inn the rain. And I don't care if I get phenomena because its a gift from god to have your dream come true. I just want to dance and run, and bounce and squeal with joy. Fall back and let the water bring you in to its world. Let your wet hair down and lean so far back that your head touches the wet ground, and you feel beautiful. Not because your wearing tons of makeup, not because you are wearing the latest style or the popular girl commented on your looks today. Because your you, because the wet outside of me becomes soft and lets the insides soak out of you.



RED